I thought I lost you

[stephrogers]

Steph could feel her heart stop when she entered the baby's room. She managed to carry Becky to full term without incident. Even give birth without too much incident. The girl was beautiful, head already full of brown hair and light brown eyes. Rebecca Winifred Barnes. She left the child in care of a carefully SHIELD screened babysitter as they went off on a mission.

But there was something deeply fishy about the mission. About the babysitter. About everything. They managed to destroy the lab and apprehend the small time villain. But Dr. Skoval's boss escaped, shouting about a swell prize.

There had been a rogue agent that had beaten the Avengers to a few minor assignments in Europe. Someone with a damn good shot. IT didn't matter to Steph as she urged Natasha to fly the jet as fast as she could back to Brooklyn.

The scene before her was a disaster: the pink crib was thrown on its side, little ponies and stuffed toys ripped and flung everywhere, the star night lamp that she bought was broken. Steph's hands shook as she read over the letter. Maria and Tony were calling orders already to trace it and follow it.

Which was how she ended up in Switzerland again, shivering not due to cold but to the memory of losing her man here. The facilities were almost too easy to break into and she proceeded with caution with Tony and Natasha as backup.

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[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

"That's not who I am," he grounds out, eyes narrowing that much more. But there were bits of that; that just felt right. He didn't get it and he didn't want to.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

"Look in your heart, Bucky! Tell me I'm wrong!" she shouted, desperate.

Becky began to fuss a bit in his arm.

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

That hand of his keeps rubbing the fussy little one's back before scowling. He looks toward the little girl not sure why he's bothering to see what's wrong. However, he's also watching Stephanie out of the corner of his eye.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

Becky reached up toward him and fussed some more. She heard mama but couldn't see her since she was swaddled in pink blankets.

"Don't you remember the church, Bucky?"

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

"What church?"

It's asked even as he uncovers the little girl some, giving her a bit more room to move around. Something about her... about the woman here with him. It was all starting to give him a headache.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

"St. Mary's. Where we got married. You had your hold man's suit. I had my mom's dress. We couldn't afford much. Our money was going toward rent in a boarding house. And we went for burgers and fries after the wedding," she continued.

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

He scowls slightly at that because none of it was ringing any bells. He'd never... "I don't..." He didn't remember it. Any of it. They'd done a damn good job on taking away his memories. Though some were... "You used to get sick a lot." Not that it's relevant.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

"Yes. I did." That was something. "But you didn't give up on me."

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

"Why are you even doing this? Tell me why it's so important," he says turning his eyes from the little girl in his arms to her.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

"Because I thought you died. And now you're standing right here in front of me." Not really Bucky but still Bucky somewhere deep down inside. "And there's a chance for you to come home. So we can be a family."

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

"Not with them around," he says simply, watching her. Not with the Black Widow and Iron Man looming around out there somewhere. He wasn't budging. On top of that SHIELD would want to take a look at him to. It wasn't happening.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

Becky began to fuss more.

"Just come home, Bucky. We'll take care of the rest later," she said quietly.

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

"I told you," he says firmly. "Not with them around." Looking down at the little girl he lets his hand run lightly over her little head. "You're fine."

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

"They don't live with me." Did Bucky take Becky form the apartment? If he did...he would've seen that it was modest, two bedroom. Enough for just Steph and Becky.

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

"They're still here," he grounds out. Though he had noticed that about the apartment. How modest it was. Something that was wholly Stephanie.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

Their wedding picture was still on her nightstand. Steph stood where she was. "We'll leave. But you need to give me Becky." She bit her lip. "Let me take Becky home. You know where I am. So come find us."

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

That gets an almost cold laugh out of him, "Oh no. You're not fooling me that easily." If she actually thinks he's giving up Becky then she's in for a rude awakening. "She's staying with me."

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

"Bucky, no, please. Don't take her away from me," Steph pleaded as she stepped forward. "Just come home. I don't care how you get home. Just come home to us."

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

"And I said get rid of them," he growls taking a step back when she steps forward. Sorry but if she wants him to come home SHIELDs little people, Natasha and the rest of them have to be far, far away. On top of that SHIELD isn't allowed to come anywhere near him.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

She stopped, turning on her comm again. "Romanov. Stark. Go back without me."

"Are you out of your geriatric mind, Capette?!" shouted Tony.

"Just...go. Please. Just go. I'll come home." She waited a few more minutes before the jet took off overhead. "There. They're gone. Now, please. Just...just give me Becky back. Please."

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

His eyes narrow slightly at the sound of Stark's voice before looking toward her. "You really think it's going to be that easy?" You don't up and tell a man no matter how skewered his memory is that he has his daughter then expect him to give her back.

"How do I know you won't run?"

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

"Come home with me. I don't know how now without a jet." She was hoping they could at least take Becky home. At least their daughter would be safe with SHIELD. Not whoever Bucky was working for.

"Come home and I'll show you how to feed her, make her laugh. Hold her until you fall asleep."

Becky fussed some more and began to cry.

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

If their daughter went anywhere near SHIELD he'd rip them apart piece by piece. Though that didn't mean that he was going to give her up any time soon.

"Fine. Lets go home then. Show me..." Show him how to do all of that.

[msrogers.livejournal.com]

Steph smiled softly and nodded. "Yeah, okay. I'll teach you all that." Becky cried some more, hearing her mother but not seeing her.

[shieldsnotmine.livejournal.com]

"Good," he states simply before turning a bit. Enough that Becky could see Steph but he still wasn't handing their daughter over.